NatSkins Diary., Version two. (:

[t3hrubikscube]

Good job, it is now time for version two of the NatSkins Diary.
For those that are unsure, all you do is just write in here as if it were your own personal diary. Put down your thoughts as frequently as you wish to, but make sure to follow the regular forum guidelines, meaning to not spam or double post.

Anyway, write away!

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Dear NS Diary,

All I've done today is sat around and watched music DVDs, mainly Slipknot, Shadows Fall, and The Offspring.

What a great Saturday.

-Brie

[tainted_angel]

Dear NS Diary,

I'm a tad irritated right now. Why? One: I still have to finish unpacking and clean my room. Two: I need to re-install APSE 3 onto my laptop, but I can't find the CD. So I'll have to e-mail my dad and ask where it is, then I can start making layouts and editing pictures. I need to edit something. >:|

And uhh..let's see. Today we went on Nellis AFB and went to AAFES and the Comissary. We saw Auntie Belen and Ali there, so we hung with them for a while. Ali's adorable. Her and Rozelle are like my little sisters, haha. Other than that, we stopped by BK for a quick lunch then headed over to PNB to send some money to my lolo. He needs to pay for his medication.

Other than that..we're gonna' mow the lawn today. For once, I'm actually looking forward to it. 'Cause the front of our house looks so untidy with it all long and hazardous-looking and such.

Sarah Joy

[greeniceflower]

^Haha..mow the lawn. Those three words won't be the same ever again.

Dear NS Diary,

I feel better now...after a nap. Less uneasiness.

It doesn't make me any happier to go on Monday though. It'll be weird, and I'm not sure how it will be.

Him and his unpredictable ways affecting the whole situation like always.

I have to admit I like that.

[t3hrubikscube]

Dear NS Diary,

Some people really f*cking piss me off sometimes.
I'm so pissed off right now that I could just kill someone and not even bat an eye.
Maybe that's a bit over the top, but that is how extremely pissed off and fed up I am.

[Rice_on_my_shoe]

Dear Ns Diary,

Why is it so dam hard to find a picture of a dragon?

-Connie

[t3hrubikscube]

Dear NS Diary,

I can't waiiiiiiit until tomorrow!
My parents are letting me go to the concert after all. =)
*stares at ticket*
I should listen to Killswitch Engage to get in the mood.
Eee, time to mosh.

Hm... I do thank them for that, but I think they've figured....it out. I was swimming and I didn't think they were home, but they came home and yeah.....asked questions. I'm afraid they'll put two and two together and figure it all out. :T I really hope they don't, because I fear what they will do about it.

Ah well. What happens.....happens, I guess.

-Brie

[greeniceflower]

Dear NS Diary,

Oh dear. I was in a crabby mood these few days until he called me. Well, even though he told me how happy he was because of some OTHER girl...for some reason, I'm fine with that. I was kinda feeling happy and sad at the same time at that point, but I guess the conversation later cheered me up. I actually had the courage to tell him...why I was so quiet around him. Well, not why, I just told him I'm only quiet around him. Or something like that, since I'm an overall quiet person.

I tried...I tried. He made my day...yes, he called at 1-2 AM, so he made my SUNDAY. I hope nothing goes wrong on Monday. Makes me excited, nervous. Not nervous to see him, but nervous about what would happen.

I feel like such a kiddddddddddddddddddddddddd. I'm glad =).

[tainted_angel]

Dear NS Diary,

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I'm so frustrated with myself and this feeling. It's eating me inside and I'm so sick of it. Right now I would possibly give anything not to feel a damned thing. I'm torturing myself over something so idiotic and unreal. Why do I do this to myself? I think it's because I have nothing better to do. I need school to keep my mind off of this. I need to dive in to some book or video game to place myself into some imaginary world where I won't have to think about this.

Just..die, die, die, die, die, die, dieee.



Sarah Joy

[greeniceflower]

Dear NS Diary,

Okay let me try this again. I WAS MAD. Then I typed. Then it deleted my whole thing. Then I went ballistic and now I'm trying again.

I HATE people in createblog. In fact, I pretty much hate things around here, around the world, around school, around everything. The only reason I like the people here more than the people in cb is because people here know me a little bit better.

What the hell do they think they are? Just because you've seen other people's art thousands of times, you're going to praise them just for the hell of it?

I don't see you...looking at your friend, and accusing them of things like they often accuse me.

I fricken hate popularity. I HATE IT so much.

Why vote for a president for the US or just class president when you only know one of them? You're sure they're the greatest. Why even vote if you ONLY know one of them. WTF IS THE DAMN POINT.

Of course, there's the part where the people that are more social tend to be a natural leader. omg I guess that's so much like life that it has to be unfair.

BUT I CAN BE LJDFLKJDLSKJDSFL:KJFDSOIJDSFOKJSFDOKJ MAD OKAY?!

[t3hrubikscube]

Dear NS Diary,

I HATE emoshits.
Period.

-Brie

P.S. I'm so freaking excited for the concert.

[greeniceflower]

Dear NS Diary,

I hope she doesn't mean me.

I'm depressed and mad and annoyed and short-tempered. And I want to leave everything.

Wow I do sound kinda emo. Wait...who cares? I don't care.

I don't know, I don't care, I can't sleep, I hate you.

[t3hrubikscube]

Dear NS Diary,

I'm so tired. I got about two hours of sleep last night....I hate just sitting there.

Hehehe. Tonight will be so fun. I canNOT wait!
I've been listening to Killswitch Engage all day and I listened to them all last night. I'm so excitedddddd. I really should get their self-titled album---I only have The End of Heartache and Alive or Just Breathing.

I hope they sell shirts. ;x I really want to buy one.

Well, that's all.

Bye,

Brie

[Rice_on_my_shoe]

Dear NS diary,

My sister called me at 5AM because she forgot her papers at home. B*tch.

-Connie

[tainted_angel]

Dear NS Diary,

I'm still considering myself an ass. I gave myself a headache last night before going to bed by thinking so much. And it's the kind of headache I get after crying. I haven't cried, but it feels as if I had. My eyes hurt.

I was going to post some big "deep, thoughtful, and observant" post on my myspace blog, but I went to think some more and instead posted it somewhere else on this forum. Blahhh..I'm just so messed up inside right now, like some thousand mile string that's all tangled up and knotted and I'm finding it so difficult to straighten it all out.



Sarah Joy

[t3hrubikscube]

I'm exhausted beyond all reasoning right now, but I'm still utterly excited for the concert tonight. This is basically the first fun thing I'll do all summer. I've been listening to Killswitch Engage so much lately. I sure hope they play my favorite songs, but I'm sure it'll be amazing anyway.

Meh, I should really practice my guitar more. I should probably clean my room as well, but I don't know. It's not that I'm lazy, I just don't have a driving force to get started and to conquer the project. Ah, well. Maybe once it gets closer to school, I'll find that motivation within.

I can't believe how much I'm starting to really like Nick.
It'd be nice if he lived closer....He's such a great guy---HILARIOUS, friendly (enough ;P), compassionate, etc. He knows how to have a good time and we never run out of things to say to each other.
Ahhh....

School starts up again on the twenty-fifth. I'm not very excited about that. Sure, it'll be nice to have something to do, but I don't really want to have to get back into the whole 'back to school' routine. My parents will be on my ass constantly again, and that gets on my nerves. I guess it's their job, but it gets annoying. They only want me to do well so they can seem like good parents that brought up a good child, and they've made that pretty clear over the years, I tell you.

Oooh, I can't wait until Children of Bodom's new single comes out. I still can't believe that they covered that Britney Spears song, but I'm sure it'll be awesome in their own interesting way.

It's always so boring in the morning---hardly anyone that I want to talk to is awake, the birds chirp insanely outside of my window, it's too bright out, and there isn't anything to do. You may suggest that I go for a nice morning walk, but I would prefer to do that before sunrise, so I'll go for that nice morning walk at about three in the morning, thank you very much. It's just so dull, but I'm always awake in the mornings with absolutely nothing to do. I think that's one reason why I want school to start, but I'm also dreading it for many other reasons.

I'm definitely drifting away from my friends.....I can see it happening, but I'm not really doing anything about it. I don't know why I'm not, because it obviously really bugs me, but I'm just letting things happen without taking any action. Like I barely even talk to Liz anymore, and when we do, I find myself struggling to come up with something to say, and the same goes for basically all of the rest of my friends as well. It's interesting how much people can change over the years....or even over one year.

I finally got around to checking the new Static-X album out, and I must say, it is better than I thought it would be. I didn't think anything could own Wisconsin Death Trip, but I suppose I was wrong. It's pretty good, and I wish I had known about them coming to Minneapolis sooner than I had. They were touring with Bloodsimple and American Head Charge! That must've been an awesome show---I LOVE Bloodsimple.

Hmm... So we're apparently going out of town this upcoming weekend. Meh. We're staying in North Dakota, so it can't be too exciting. I think we're going to Jamestown, Devil's Lake and Grand Forks. I guess I'll just bring my camera and try and entertain myself by taking pictures, although there really isn't a lot out there that's picture-worthy. Now if we were going more to the west in North Dakota, then there would be more to take pictures of, but the places we're going to are basically just smaller versions of my town Fargo, so there won't be a lot that's too interesting or unheard of.

I'm reallllly repeating myself a lot here, but yeah. It felt nice to write all of that out today. x)

Well, that's about all I have to say for now. I'm too excited for tonight to even concentrate.

-Brie

[virus]

haha i'm posting in here....

i'm so tired...but i don't want to sleep...i stayed up all night because i couldn't sleep. i feel so hurt that she'd block me...but i guess its part of the "pulling away" thing. haha...

on the other hand...dinner last night was fun i guess...the little fuckasses were crazy...my little cousin likes to grab boobs and touch nipples...ah hes going to be a fine little fuckass

[tainted_angel]

Dear NS Diary,

Who can blame? I can. I'm blaming myself. There are so many negative things I could say about myself. But I won't. I'll think them instead. That way, they're embedded into my mind for as long as they'll have an effect on me. Most likely, that's a pretty damn long time.

I'm always putting myself down because honestly I think most of the time I deserve it. It hurts even more when other people realize it and they tell me so. Like my parents. Some of the things they've said in the past. I always turned to my friends. I'm wondering now..where are they? My parents are more kind, so I'm glad.

Truth: I have no best friend. But I want one so bad, although I'm not going to go through extreme measures to stalk someone and force them to become one.

I want someone to call me in the middle of the night and end up talking for countless hours. I want to talk to someone who can make me laugh to endless lengths and never run out of things to say. I want to find the other half of what I'm missing.

You know what I need?
A boyfriend who is my best friend. T_T
Because I want to be held, thought of, and missed too.

Sarah Joy

[greeniceflower]

Dear NS Diary,

Two free lunches today. I basically went to school...and did nothing :>. I'm the best section leader!

Well I guess.

I got to see him and that's all that matters. Kay.

From now on...if I need to be really depressing, it's going to be mso :>.

[t3hrubikscube]

Dear NS Diary,

MAN, I write in here too much. X_x
Ah, well. That's the point of it, though, I guess.

Anyway, the news: I just found out that there are going to be two other bands playing tonight! As I Lay Dying and Soilwork! This is going to seriously own ass. I cannot wait. Two and a half hours until it starts. =)

I have noooo idea about what I should wear though. ;_;
I feel lame saying that, but I'm so LOST.
Should I wear another band shirt? I don't know. I don't have a Killswitch Engage shirt, nor an As I Lay Dying shirt or a Soilwork shirt, so it's harder to choose a shirt. >O I saw people wearing Metallica shirts and stuff at the Slipknot concert, so I guess it'd be alright. Maybe I'll opt for The Doors. Maybe I'll opt for System of a Down. Maybe I'll opt for Shadows Fall. Hey, maybe even Led Zeppelin.
Or I guess I could wear just a plain shirt...

Meh.
I feel so lame talking about what I'm going to wear. >P

I can't wait to mosh!

-Brie

[tainted_angel]

Dear NS Diary,

Some people..blah.

I went to read Sarah Dessen's (my favourite author of my favourite book This Lullaby) LJ, and that's where I found out that Peter Jennings passed away today from lung cancer. I remember seeing it on the news that he was diagnosed with it, and went away to begin treatment.

http://www.cnn.com/2005/SHOWBIZ/TV/08/07/j...bit/index.html/

I miss school.

Sarah Joy

[greeniceflower]

Dear NS Diary,

I'm confused to the point where I don't care....

Today was a fun day. Went to guard/percussion camp, saw some section leaders and guard people...then my besttt friendd ever came over. And we took a lot of pictures. Both goofy/private, and...cool looking :>.

[t3hrubikscube]

HELLO!!!!

Oh man.
The
concert
f*cking
pwned
ASS.

I swear.
Soilwork opened....They had about a thirty minute long set. They were very heavy in-person, I must say! I thought the bass was going to knock me over at times. They had a kickass circle pit going though!

Then came As I Lay Dying! They played for about an hour or so, I'd have to guess. They were AMAZING. MAN! I LOVED THEM!

THEN KILLSWITCH ENGAGE!!! I think they played close to two hours. I was pressed up against the gates at that point....so close, so close! I got drenched by their water bottles and I could hear them sing and play their guitars without the microphones and amps, I was so close.

WHAT A PWNAGE NIGHT!
I've never moshed so hard in my entire life.
MAN!!
I seriously am now really into Soilwork and As I Lay Dying. I was already freaking out over Killswitch Engage, but now I'm on a mission to get their self-titled album.

I'll write a decent review when I can sit still.

FUUUUUCK YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! \m/

Ahem.

-Brie

[tainted_angel]

Dear NS Diary,

D00d I'm so excited. Nothing big really, but it'll be fun, y0. Haha. Quincy told me AV's first football game is on the 26th at 7:00 PM. I have to go. Why? Here are a few reasons:

_Josh
_Raeann
_April
_Mallory
_Quincy
_Chris
_Daniel
_Erica
_Angel
_Fun
_Photos
_Nachos

Haha, fosho. I'm pumped. It just keeps me busy with the thought about the first day of school too, lol. Shane has been messaging me on myspace and I only remembered it was him when I asked him if he ever went out with Jacy. Lol, I kinda' felt bad 'cause he was all, "Man..that's the only way people know me. 'Cause I went out with Jacy." Lol, but it was funny at the same time. He lives in Cali now though, he left after the last freshman game. That was a fun day.

Okay, so I just asked my mom if I could go. She said she'd think about it. I think I'll be able to go, all I need is the street address.

Sarah Joy

[t3hrubikscube]

Dear NS Diary,

Man. I haven't slept that much in YEARS. Well, I had a few good reasons to sleep that long...: A) I hadn't slept in two days, and B) I had moshed like freaking crazy the night before.

I went to sleep at 3:30 AM and woke up at 2:00 PM.... I'm almost embarrassed. xP It felt great to finally get some good sleep though.

I'm still grinning about last night. Seriously. I couldn't have asked for a better night.

Well, that's all. I'm starved.

-Brie

[tainted_angel]

Dear NS Diary,

I'm feeling better. But very tired---I got about two and a half hours of sleep last night. I kept on waking up. It was just uncomfortable. Tonight, I have a feeling I'll be falling asleep a bit early..or if I can at all. Quincy is starting to get annoying again. Immediately when he signs on, when I already have my away message up (like always), he goes: "Hey you there?", "Hey, hey, hey.", "Come back." Almost makes me want to skip the first game. But I'm going to see my other friends too, not just him. So wudevaaaa.

As for everything else..uhm. I dunno. I'm okay. That's all.

Sarah Joy