Poetry, yes i know it's annoying

[Duke Malbec of Moussillon]

Recently i was very kindly informed by someone who'll remain nameless that there is a poetry contest down in london, this time with a proper publisher so i'm thinking of submitting some stuff. The deal is that i must submit 20-30 poems and i've got until october. What i'm asking of you is that you read the following ones very carefully and tell me what you think i should submit out of them thanks.

1. Break me

I don't want to bother you anymore
Wishing my heart would stop
I don't want this suffering torment, so sore
you turn your back on me
without pausing for a moment,
And walk through the door.

As I fall to the ground
my skull split on the floor
You left me alone
with a feeling so cold.
As the colour fades from my eyes
I remember the warmth of your love
replaced by the veins of ice.

can't you hear me?
My soul is calling,
screaming out your name
Can't you see
You're the one who'll
Break me.


2. How Can I go back

How can I go back?
I'm not who I used to be,
I can't face another day of uncertainty
You're holding me back
I've got to break free.

When the teardrops
follow your smile,
I'll go on without
your love for a while

How can you tell me
our love is pure
are you putting on a show
I'm not so sure

I throw myself against the wall
my soul is screaming out
can't you hear the call

Inside I laugh,
confused I wander, I roam
no matter where I head,
I always end up back home


3. Standing in the shadows

I can see your smile
You glance at me
and I know I'm safe
As long as I have your love
Deep within my heart
The world doesn't seem
Half as dark.

You brighten the world
With a simple laugh
When you're not around
I'm incomplete, only half.

When you look at me
The pain disappears
Along with my anguish
My torment and my fears.

I should have told you
Instead I kept quiet
And now I've lost to
Someone who doesn't care.
Laughing at you behind your back
makes me wonder where

I can see your smile
You glance at me,
And I know I'm safe
As long as I have your love,
Deep within my heart
The world doesn't seem
Half as dark

I see you through a window
A glimmer of hope remains
Standing in the shadows
To avoid my soul from being stained

What about me,
when was I left behind
no sound
but my soul screaming inside.
Just my luck
I stand in the shadows
And no one gives a (bleep3).

I'm wearing my heart
on my sleeve
I can see the web of lies
That he has begun to weave.
I lay it all on the line
Even if I'm left alone
I know I'll be just fine.

It sucks to be sad
but when you're here
I've got no reason not to be glad.

The way you hold my hand
The way you smile at me
I know that when you're told
My soul will be free.

Tell me where
do we go from here?
Because I don't want to
Face the world alone
My heart has sunken so low
And once again I find myself
Standing in the shadows


4. Somewhere to belong

I don't know where
I'm going to
but I'm headed there alone
It's funny because the only place
I'm looking for is home

I walk through this life
No path to tread
So watch your step
Before you know it,
You'll wind up dead

In this world I would
Create for you
There would be no pain or fear
The demons tormented
Unable to shed any tears

I take your hand
And hold it close to my chest
I want you to know
all my sins I have confessed

when i'm locked,
in your embrace
I only see you
with you warming smile
on your beautiful face

When I'm with you
all my fears disappear
A shining beacon
In the darkness of my fears
I've finally found,
That I don't need to go on,
My place on the ground
Somewhere
where I belong.

I don't know where
We're going to
But I'm no longer alone
It's funny because the only place
We're looking for is somewhere,
Sometime,
Where we belong.


5. They all live in denial

At least I got to see you
One last time
Before I had to go away
When will we be together again?
No one can truly say.

Don't hold back the tears
Just don't block your heart
Fight against the darkest fears
Renounce your forbidden arts

I can hear them call and jeer
They stop and stare
Laughing at my burdens
Tell me please why should I care?

They always have to be in the right
I shout out the truth
The inner demons we have to fight
They all live in Denial
That nothing is forever,
Nothing is final

Our hands stretch through
the sands of time.
One lover forgotten
The other lost in their mind
This eternal desire
Is setting my whole world,
and my soul on fire

Why am I the one on trial?
What did I do wrong?
Living in this world of denial
You can't let the truth escape
If it did it would be the end
Of your twisted little games.
It's over now and
nothing can stay the same

6. Cruel reality

You ask me to stay strong,
but that's something i can't do
It's not right, something's missing.
I can see the cruel hand, fate has dealt you.

Faced with a mortal's end
I try to cope
Your soul I want to mend
But I'm afraid, torn and broken
You tried to warn me,
That you wouldn't always be here
I thought you were joking
I go through life trying to make you proud
I'm gonna be somebody
my name in lights,
chanted by the crowd.


7. My dark art

Did you think I would forget,
All the things we used to do
How can you pretend
That I never loved you.

I don't see you anymore
Thoughts confused in my head
I need these wounds to heal, closed sores,
regretting all my confessions
everything that's been said.

The voices in my head screaming
the pain goes on relentless
of silence is all I'm dreaming
The pain vanishing
no longer tormenting me or you
Choices made long ago
I know I'll see them through

The pain is long gone
now only shadows rule
where once the sun shone
in the depths of a broken heart,
hides a valley of lies
love long lost, a forgotten art

I can't tell you how i feel,
To admit the truth
would be a bittersweet seal
In the shards of my heart
Love is my forgotten art.

Sat in the dark alone,
nothing to preoccupy
my fell pact I begin to hone.
Sat in the crowd I take my place
ashamed and betrayed
I turn my face
embarrassed I make my move
finally I can say
"I love you"

8. The world corrupted

Like the crow haunting your dreams
I follow you into a world
Where nothing is as it seems
Where the evil live for centuries
And the good die young

So how can I go on
Being what you expect me to be
All your lies undone
Finally seeing everything hidden from me

So turn your head
look at your subject
And tell me now
What's the point of ruling the world
When everybody's dead

The world is such
a dark place
made all the worse by an evil
known simply as the human race
murder, corruption win
those who are pure
destined to lose to those who sin

There's no such thing as goodbye
The only thing that's left is
See you later
As death works through his list
It becomes apparent that when we're gone
By all too few will we be missed.

What's the point,
of ruling this world?
A position that made
You become so cold
When you turn your head
Look around you now
Everybody's dead


9. Sacrifice myself

To sacrifice myself for you
Is the last thing I'll ever do
So tell me why
you keep pushing me away
And I keep on
Coming back, determined to stay

It seems I just don't know,
Why I keep running back to you
What it is we're looking for
You enslave my thoughts
And leave my body to rot

I don't know where we began
To go so wrong
there's only one thing I can do
But in the end,
I must sacrifice myself for you

I felt your velvet embrace
Alone in my dreams,
Where everything
Is much better than it seems

I used to bare my soul
But not anymore
The final thing I can do
Is this one selfless act
And sacrifice myself for you.

I stand here condemned
To love you for all of time
Knowing your velvet soft embrace
Forgetting all pain and fear
That would restore my faith

But I left it all too late
And now you're gone
Nothing can my anger sate
I hope you knew
That I would have
Sacrificed myself for you


10. I can't pretend

I can't pretend
that I'm happy
with the way
things worked out

But as long
as my friends remember me
my spirit will
never truly die

my wounds
are filled with knives
but you find sanctity
behind your lies

When you quake
though nothing's wrong
I can feel you begin to take
Away what's left of me

My wounds are hidden
from a world that doesn't care
lying broken on the floor
I laugh As I watch
you go out the door

The days pass
without a care
goverments rule by fear
in a world that doesn't care

They don't care about you and me
they don't understand
our intertwined destiny
if one of us is cut
the other will bleed.


11. Weeping Demons

In my heart
there's a demon sleeping,
in my dreams
all I see is an angel weeping.

Nothing stays the same
I would sacrifice myself
to spare you the pain
of going through
the torment of my soul.

I can't see the light
at the end of the tunnel
yet I know it's there
I wish I could see
what you can believe
but there's no more
strength left in me

I have given you my all
but now you must understand
When you walked away
the torment began.
The demon inside now rages free
and there's nothing you can do
to try and stop me

You have freed my soul
no longer bound
by the chains of your torment
Your voice a distant sound.

Now as I lay down
I can hear only one thing
The weeping of an angel
is haunting my dreams.
I'm standing here alone again
And nothing's, as it seems.

In my heart
there's a demon sleeping,
in my dreams
all I see is an angel weeping.

I knew this day would come
But it doesn't stop the pain
Can't you understand
Nothing is the same
Anymore.

12. Deep inside

deep down I bleed
why can't you understand
won't you see
the conflict is tearing me apart
deep inside of me.

Tears are flowing deep inside
as you back away from me
a hurtful expression,
of fear in your eye.

I know I hurt you before
like a marionette with no strings
I collapse in a heap upon the floor.
There is no love or respect here
condemned to feel one thing
realising my darkest fears

I'm crying deep inside
weeping for the ones I loved
those I left behind
with wounds within my soul
I'm dying inside

13. Condemned

The pain in my heart
is far too real
a wound in my soul
that never can heal.

So don't try to save me
I can't hear you anymore
trying to set us free
I have condemned us all.

I don't understand why
you could ask me
to sacrifice everything.

Why can't you see
the sacrifices I made for you
I would do it all again
the pain I put myself through,

As the world begins to fall
I screwed up
I have condemned us all

Now I can see you
for who you really are
And I begin to wonder
Just how we made it this far.

You're not who I thought you were
so you leave me alone
A fate no one deserves
as I hear you taunt and jeer
where once was a face of beauty
Now only demons leer.

When you see what I did for you
after all you put us through
when the world began to fall
you condemned us all


14. The demons within

Why…
Can't you see?
everything you put me through
all the pain and misery

What the hell is going on
You committed the original sin
trying to act like you belong
doing anything to fit in

False promises
Leave me weak
But I know now
What I saw in you

The pain is fading now
and suddenly
I am no longer tormented
My soul is free
Leave us be

You have no right
To judge me
You're not my saviour
you only bring one thing
It's the pain of living

No matter what you say
nothing will be the same
and we're all to blame
the folly of war

it marks us all
creating a world of sorrow
bullets today
and bombs tomorrow

The folly of war
It calls to us all
The folly of war
Has destroyed all hope.

And now mankind falls
because of a dream
of hellfire burning
demons stripping my bones
realising that it was them
who helped defend my home

15. Heart of stone

I can hear it coming
closer and closer
nothing can save me
I pull at my lifeline
but there's nothing there
all my hope is gone
my spirit lay bare

Lies about our time
together cut deeper
than any blade
I don't why we pretend
that our friendship can be saved

You abused my trust
apparently the love I felt
just wasn't enough
You try to turn my friends
and this is how it ends
Don't try pretending
that you know
the heart made of stone

You try to cut me
once more,
to leave me bleeding
on the floor
but even with your sharpest knife
you cannot end
my tragic life
I've learned to hone
how to turn my heart
into a heart of stone

I've gone past caring about you
I only protect myself
even if it means I am lonesome
here alone on the shelf
Scars from your tongue
line my soul
in my dreams I'm walking
on a dark and dusty road

I look where once
you were all that I saw
your once beautiful hands
have turned into claws.

My friends have turned from me
left alone in the dark
and now, shadows are all that I see
I take my time I slowly rise
I may not be smart
but I try to be wise.
My heart feels harder
first to bone,
then before I know it
I've nothing left
but a heart of stone.

You gave me the strength
through my hatred of you
the memory of you makes me retch
but I'm over you now
you stupid vindictive bitch
You pretended to care
when you were never
really there.

Now you've left me here alone
cast out into the unknown
held down by
weighed down by
my heart of stone
I don't know why
I'm thankful for
My.
heart.
of.
Stone.

16. Fear

I'm scared.

I only hurt those i touch
their pain hidden
i amplify to too much

life is a system of challenges
tricks and decisions
in my haste to finish
clouded was my vision

I turn to you
My Wolf guide
help me please
tell me which
life I'm destined to lead.

A life of pain
is one lived too long
ended too soon
it's a mistake just wrong.

Take me instead
of those i love
I've lived my life
more than long enough .

Time to move on
to pastures new
never thought that
I'd greet them without you

I left you behind
so many years ago
bringing up your memory
makes my tears begin to flow.

Life's been good
and life's been cruel
to have never grown older
without you life
it feels so much colder

I thank those
who know me best
for they will allow
my eternal rest

17. She

Her soul deserves paradise
but she goes through hell
i offer her a warm embrace, and
in return get a shoulder cold as ice

Knocked back and stunned
i stand in the crowd
she can't head what i yell
try telling her my feelings
it's unrequited i can tell

Seeming too perfect for this world
looking at your beauty
and life becomes swirled
my mind embraces
what my hand cannot touch
fate aims for the weakest of places
offering you hope only to tear it away

Our souls glanced together
but from that moment
in my mind you've stayed forever.

I was burned before once,
I realise the truth
i won't allow myself to be spurned twice
as i offer you a warm embrace
and receive a shoulder, cold as ice

I know we'd never work
when beauty as strong as yours
could have anyone you want
I'll have to admire from afar
wishing and praying to be blessed
by some distant star

I've tried being bad
and i've tried being nice
from shattered hearts
to healing them with lace
going from
shoulders colder than the coldest ice
to the burning heat of a loving embrace.
I hear you laughing
as my heart is gripped
in a torturous vice
seeking warmth and salvation
all I grasp is a shoulder of ice

18. Soaring Soul

When you next hear a bell toll
look for me under a grassy knoll
for that is when my body left my soul.

Thoughts inside my head,
were so random
peace now only when I'm dead
please just forget all that I have said.

So I'm thankful now for
the friends I've made
you try to revive me
but the reaper's hand cannot be stayed

Rejections of the heart
I seem to crave for,
cannot help but seek out more
Go ahead, leave me be now
once you're gone
my spirit once again
will be able to soar.

as we fought blow by blow
I realised my time had come
never again will I see the rising sun

look now and see with dread
the horror that I have become
I was promised my salvation
I would be welcomed into heaven
instead I've gone through hell
since the tolling of the bell

Paying for the sins of all men
I've seen the darkest core
my spirit never again
will be able to soar.


19. Stolen Soul

The lie and sorrow that lie ahead,
blindly wandering
down a path that demons fear to tread

Can you truly save me heartache
is my soul worth it to see,
what lies ahead

Now when I look into your eyes
I realise the harm caused by what I said

just because we couldn't see
through the lies
and now my soul belongs
to The Lord of the Flies

Where to begin,
I just don't know
Happiness doesn't seem that long ago.

An ever looming shadow haunts my dreams
No matter what I do, no one hears my screams
Its reign of terror just begun
in my dark world,
The moon has killed my sun.

I hide my fears deep within my heart
This my friends is my release, my art.
On the outside my facade is calm,
Truth is I don't even know who I am.

Finally it's clear,
I'm not wanted here


20. Betrayal

You see the look of surprise,
Within my eyes.
You're the one to whom
I never thought Id lose

You cheated and lied,
You twisted in the knife.
You've broken my heart
From this moment my death must start

I see inside your heart,
I glimpse inside your soul,
But for me the hardest thing
Is knowing your darkest goal

I don't know why I pretend
That I've been there before
I can help you my friend
All I can say is this,
It's time to even the score

Everyday I cry
And with each teardrop that falls
Inside a little more I die
These wounds so fresh
At the mention of your name
Make me feel eternally sore

21. Nameless, Faceless, Faithless

All I ever wanted
Was to know your true name
As I slip from this world
I realise things
Will never be the same
Again

I search for
The strength inside
To stand and fight
Or maybe just hide

I've been left here
All alone
Trying to heal my flesh
And fix my bones

Left to rot
On a marble floor
As you just turned away
And walked out door

And all I wanted
Was to know your name
Deep inside
I realised it was all
Just a sick and twisted game

Trapping me within
The labyrinth of my
Soul
chains wrapped round my arms
Trying to ward off the shadows
And protect myself from harm

22. Ragnarok

Who the (bleep3) said
that we were ever dead
all these illusions
caged within your head.

Something i can't forgive
is your execution of the soul,
asking too much from me
and then finally at the end
of the world i am free

Trying to find my place
staring into your eyes
all i see is a dark and empty space
Where once your soul did reside
no from your fury
I can do nothing but hide

Following me like the demons
of my dreams
reality is tearing
itself apart at the seams

Fighting against the fallen
Feels like I'm dying
Losing my way
Every time I'm breathing

But in the end
I know it's not worthwhile
Cos in the end it's
The god's who decide
Destiny of the world


Your picture perfect fantasy
Take a look around,
You obliterate everything
That you see
But in the end
All you have done
Is destroy everything

That was important to me
Why must you destroy

Seeking to belong
Destroying all I know
Taking me to
My darkest lows
Showing me desires
Then casting them
Upon the fires
Of Hell

I'm falling
And burning
Everyone I ever loved
I have disowned
Surrounded by people
Yet standing here alone

23. Free me

Here I lie in broken chains
swearing to myself
that I won't be another pawn
In your twisted game

This time I am free
Finally I can see
Just what it was
you were aiming for all along

Darker than a ptich black night
Holding back the dawn
With all of my might
Yet still I can't tear free
From your bond
Release me,
Freedom is the only thing
That still you deny me

I can't breathe
You're suffocating me
And in the end
Freedom is all I need
So give it up

This time I am free
Finally I can see
Just what it was
you were aiming for all along

Its just not meant to be
You've kept me
Chained to a wall
But we rose above it all
Finally I am free
To be who I really am
No one to judge me
Anymore
Just as soon as you
Walked through that door

And I realise
This was nothing more
Than your pathetic test
And I know I've passed
Because I'm still alive
But don't forget those
You sacrificed along the way

This time I am free
Finally I can see
Just what it was
you were aiming for all along

Don't try to judge me
You're no god
You tried your best
Gambling everything away
And now you're back where you began
There's nothing you can say

so give it all up
It just wasn't meant to be
Make the right choice
And set me free

24. Reincarnation

I don't want to be alone
thought i could be the first
to make it on my own

i'm wandering down
the same old road
so here we are again
trying to understand it all

I know it's dead and gone
but try as I might
I just can't move on

They say that time
can heal all wounds
but the pain is all too real
with every birth of a new moon

The changing of the seasons
have no meaning
but to give another reason

The world wins again
I'm lying here bleeding
Time to leave behind
all the pain I've been feeling

25. Kiss of the sun

There's no easy way
to say goodbye
I laid down my life
so you could try
again

I sacrificed myself
i gave you everything
it just wasn't enough
when you left it always felt
like something was missing

I tried to repay
my debts to you
owing nothing to the world
and everything to everyone
never truly thought
i'd miss the kiss of the sun

[Edmund]

Dear Duke Malbec of Moussillon

For myself mate I must admit that I am not so big on poetry dealing with Love etc. I prefer mine with a bit more omph... well, here is an example.

They lumber through the night with their elephantine tread.
I cower in affright as I huddle in my bed.
They lift colossal wings on the high gable roofs,
Which tremble to the trample of their mastodonic hooves.

He told how murderers walk the earth beneath the curse of Cain
With crimson clouds before their eyes and flames about their brain
For blood has left upon their souls its ever-lasting stain.

How can I wear the harness of toil and sweat at the daily round?
While in my soul forever the drums of Pictdom sound!

Robert E Howard

I don't know what type of music you're into but may I suggest the albums "Orgasmatron" by Motorhead, "The Years of Decay" by Overkill, "Sabbath Bloody Sabbath" by Black Sabbath. Start with the song "Paranoid" by Black Sabbath (album of same name) if you have never been into Metal (and by Metal I mean true metal in the Man'o"war sense, not death metal crap - stuff that is positive not negative). You've got to channel it into something external, not internalise it - and I know you know what I am talking about. Constructive energy must be created and capitalised on, and don't let people fool you, hate, anger and rage can see you through. But don't let it become blind - peal back the onion and look through what is around you, it is not what it seems and the "masters" of our lives are hidden... (if you don't understand what I mean then ask yourself this question, recession, who benefits?). Just remember that sheep are happy because they are ignorant and while the truth may set you free it wont make you happy.

Anyway, that my two cents worth.....

Edmund