Wolf burried secrets.

[fenrir serkan]

The book sits on the highest part of the bookshelf, black leather covers and white pages. in the front there's what seems to be marks of claws in golden. Picking the book, Fenrir sat on his desk and started to write.

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I've never been good to write down what I think... It might be because I never got the time to do something as this.

It's been a while since I was sold to the market and Seth bought me out there. The first day in his mansion was awesome to say the least, we talked for a while and he told me his rules...

Then we went to Canada to buy some clothes and pick up the books that my grandfather wrote. I'm still sad to know my granfather left us, but what really saddened me was to see Seth so bad. We talked in Stanley Park and there I found about the lycan that used to be Seth's best friend... Perhaps even more than that.

Which leads me to my main point... I'm feeling things I never had felt. First and foremost is that tranquility I feel whenever I'm around Seth. I don't know what's it but I just feel... like nothing could be wrong ever again, it calms me immensely to be with my new friend.

Then there's this care I feel for him, it may be the fact I want to not let him down on his expectations about me, yet... I had never cared for someone else like this, not even for my family. I don't know why, but I feel I don't ever want to see him hurt or sad...

Speaking of it, when I saw Seth so worried and sad back then I just felt sad... I think I'm becoming just way too empathyc for my health, but I don't give a damn about it! I want to stay with Seth, no matter what... I know I can replace Katarn, but I can protect Seth, that alone gives me a reason to live when I lakced any reason.

I think I love him... Not as a mate but as a brother. You know, that kind of love where you feel no physical attraction but feel empathy and care too much for the other person to simply say its a friendship. I don't know if he'll ever see me as something more than a friend, but even if not I'll keep caring for him.

[fenrir serkan]

I must be totally crazy, but I don't care. Seth asked me today if we could train, he said something about testing my abilities... So of course I went. After waiting for him, we started sparing and after he said he needed to see I was worthy, I entered in a sort of berserk mode.

I hurt him, breaking some of his ribs. Luckily I had the vaccine so it was easier for me to control my instincts, but I felt very bad. I still feel bad for hurting Seth... Back to the point, I felt completely crushed so I told him I wasn't worth to be around him and ran. Seth caught me a while later and we started talking.

One thing lead to other and when Seth came closer, I couldn't prevent it, I kissed him... And I liked it. I know for sure I love Seth, and now I also know he loves me too.

He said there's a ritual that could give me immortality. I want to go through it, I don't care what it costs me or what I have to give, I just want to be with Seth forever, want to protect him forever... to love him forever.