if i can't have you

evelina calista brendon

if i can't have you then
then i don't want anyone

can't fight, no threat
hardcore hatred i'll tell them we both just moved on
dislike i'll pretend that i don't hear them talk
jealousy swallow my pride and bite my tongue
cheated on is it over yet
backstabber is this what it feels like to really cry
fear the memory is breaking my heart
just die pretend i'm okay with it all
apathy is this is hard as it gets
friends turned enemies i'm talking in circles
unfriendly rivalry i'm lying, they know it
friendly rivalry why won't this all go away
mind games can i open my eyes
annoyance i'll tell them we just grew apart
taunting what do I care if they believe me or not
not speaking act like there's nothing wrong

one look, no hesitation
inseparable look at you for what you really are
other half i will be here still
partners in crime given out under the weight
best friend settling for a world of gray
like family so you wouldn't have to face your own hate
inner circle the gate that keeps your secret
friend of a friend if no one will listen
close friendship maybe no one told you
secret friend do you think there is enough
forbidden friend after the bombs explode
average friends you alone must go
fake friend fear that eats away at your bones
former friends there is strength in your tears
first name basis fists are raw from beating yourself down
acquaintances fight to keep them from pouring out

no time to waste on an invitation
crush on eve i know that i've got issues
crush on you but you're pretty messed you too
mutual crush guess this means your sorry
physical attraction how much you wanted anyone but me
one night stand for telling you goodbye
friend/enemies with benefits maybe i was stupid
forbidden but i can't let you go
past i really shouldn't miss you
future cause we belong together now
final forever united here somehow
soul mate you got a piece of me
infatuation you take back the things you said
bed warmer said you'd never come back but here you are again
one sided feelings wrong for trying to pick a fight
dysfunctional being with you is so dysfunctional

only damage has been done
creator left them all behind
mentor why did i turn away
emotional support i wish i say to you its gonna be alright
good influence where were my senses
bad influence you know its killing me
respect could have eased your pain
trust didn't wanna face the truth
protective i wish i could save you
admiration i ain't going nowhere
confused we can pretend its all the same
tense i can tell how much you hate this
awkward but nothing i can say could change anything
stalker reach for me empty handed
about to change trying to find the proof
other (specify) there will be no pain tonight

everybody wants to be loved
credit for this lovely plot page goes to beka of darkening millennium.
you can use as long as you keep the credit intact. the lyrics are from kelly
clarkson's amazing new album 'all i ever wanted'. the colors are from the color
blender everyone uses. give me 4+ sentences of history, first person please.
and anywhere gets you nowhere, try to put at least 5 relationships.

can't breathe, can't sleep

blinded by your spotlight


donner von krieg
(better known as my fireman)
hardcore hatred i'll tell them we both just moved on
dislike i'll pretend that i don't hear them talk
fear the memory is breaking my heart
just die pretend i'm okay with it all
apathy is this is hard as it gets
friends turned enemies i'm talking in circles
friendly rivalry why won't this all go away
mind games can i open my eyes
annoyance i'll tell them we just grew apart
taunting what do I care if they believe me or not
partners in crime given out under the weight
best friend settling for a world of gray
close friendship maybe no one told you
secret friend do you think there is enough
forbidden friend after the bombs explode
first name basis fists are raw from beating yourself down
mutual crush guess this means your sorry
physical attraction how much you wanted anyone but me
one night stand for telling you goodbye
friend/enemies with benefits maybe i was stupid
forbidden but i can't let you go
bed warmer said you'd never come back but here you are again
emotional support i wish i say to you its gonna be alright
good influence where were my senses
bad influence you know its killing me
respect could have eased your pain
trust didn't wanna face the truth
DONNER VON KRIEG says: i met eve for the first time as enemies, of course i didn't know it was her. all i knew was that she was a vampyre. the second time i met her i made a new friend, perhaps even my best friend here on earth. when i finally discovered who and what she was though, i knew i had my duty to do... but there's something about her that makes me not able to truly harm her. i mean yeah, we'll fight for a bit, but it never ends the way a normal fight does - if ya know what i mean...
EVE says:well our first meeting wasn't really pleasant, but then we ran into each other later and hit it off rather well. he's a fun guy. really fun. but once he found out what i was, well, things kinda feel apart. though, i'm still alive even after our fights, and so is he, so that's gotta say something about our relationship, right? in any case, i do rather like him, and i don't want to have to end his life, but eventually...well...one of us has got to lose.


akula de gaunt
(better known as my king)
like family so you wouldn't have to face your own hate
inner circle the gate that keeps your secret
close friendship maybe no one told you
first name basis fists are raw from beating yourself down
physical attraction how much you wanted anyone but me
one night stand for telling you goodbye
friends with benefits maybe i was stupid
bed warmer said you'd never come back but here you are again
creator left them all behind
mentor why did i turn away
emotional support i wish i say to you its gonna be alright
good influence where were my senses
bad influence you know its killing me
respect could have eased your pain
trust didn't wanna face the truth
protective i wish i could save you
admiration i ain't going nowhere
AKULA DE GAUNT says:it was long ago when i met eve. back then she was but only a child. we'd been hearing of attacks on vampyres coming from this village - and we believed they were coming from the "holy" men in the area who believed us to be damned. as it so happened we were wrong. eve was the only survivor, and i did not feel like killing a child... though i did learn that her brother had been killed in the attack. even i do not truly see turner her as a penance for what was done, but i do hope that somehow it is. since then she has been loyal as far as i know, and has also been rather close to me.
EVE:well, this is certainly complicated. at first i despised akula, and most of the other vampyres. they stole my family from me, murdered my brother, supposedly all because of a mistake. pretty big mistake if you ask me. but i can't deny akula is great, i still resent him a little for what he did, to my family and to me, but he's made up for it plenty. in bed and out. there is nothing i wouldn't do if he asked it of me

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donner von krieg
(better known as leave blank i'll fill in)
hardcore hatred i'll tell them we both just moved on
dislike i'll pretend that i don't hear them talk
fear the memory is breaking my heart
just die pretend i'm okay with it all
apathy is this is hard as it gets
friends turned enemies i'm talking in circles
friendly rivalry why won't this all go away
mind games can i open my eyes
annoyance i'll tell them we just grew apart
taunting what do I care if they believe me or not
partners in crime given out under the weight
best friend settling for a world of gray
close friendship maybe no one told you
secret friend do you think there is enough
forbidden friend after the bombs explode
first name basis fists are raw from beating yourself down
mutual crush guess this means your sorry
physical attraction how much you wanted anyone but me
one night stand for telling you goodbye
friend/enemies with benefits maybe i was stupid
forbidden but i can't let you go
bed warmer said you'd never come back but here you are again
emotional support i wish i say to you its gonna be alright
good influence where were my senses
bad influence you know its killing me
respect could have eased your pain
trust didn't wanna face the truth
DONNER VON KRIEG says: i met eve for the first time as enemies, of course i didn't know it was her. all i knew was that she was a vampyre. the second time i met her i made a new friend, perhaps even my best friend here on earth. when i finally discovered who and what she was though, i knew i had my duty to do... but there's something about her that makes me not able to truly harm her. i mean yeah, we'll fight for a bit, but it never ends the way a normal fight does - if ya know what i mean...
EVE:leave blank or copy and paste

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akula de gaunt
(better known as leave blank i'll fill in)


like family so you wouldn't have to face your own hate
inner circle the gate that keeps your secret
close friendship maybe no one told you
first name basis fists are raw from beating yourself down
physical attraction how much you wanted anyone but me
one night stand for telling you goodbye
friends with benefits maybe i was stupid
bed warmer said you'd never come back but here you are again
creator left them all behind
mentor why did i turn away
emotional support i wish i say to you its gonna be alright
good influence where were my senses
bad influence you know its killing me
respect could have eased your pain
trust didn't wanna face the truth
protective i wish i could save you
admiration i ain't going nowhere

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AKULA DE GAUNT says:[color=white]it was long ago when i met eve. back then she was but only a child. we'd been hearing of attacks on vampyres coming from this village - and we believed they were coming from the "holy" men in the area who believed us to be damned. as it so happened we were wrong. eve was the only survivor, and i did not feel like killing a child... though i did learn that her brother had been killed in the attack. even i do not truly see turner her as a penance for what was done, but i do hope that somehow it is. since then she has been loyal as far as i know, and has also been rather close to me.
EVE:leave blank or copy and paste