Cassidy's long blonde hair fell down her back as she let it out of the ponytail. She'd just been attempting to get along with the sktaer dudes at the Skate Park but it had failed. Instead of trying to help her, they'd hit on her numerous times and put their arms around places she really didn't want them to be around. Why? Because she wasn't single, and nor did she want to be single. Just thinking about Louis brought a big, genuine grin to her face and the butterflies flutter up and down her stomach. And it was in the good, lovey-dovey way. Pushing back her hair as she dropped the Skate Board she'd borrowed from a friend onto the floor, she kicked it along with her feet. No way was she going to make another attempt at Skate Boarding. The last attempt several minutes ago had left her on the floor with an incredibly sore pain spreading through her backside areas. Then again; maybe it hadn't been the best ideas to be wearing the tightest drain pipes she could find in her wardrobe that morning.

Walking along the street, she whistled to herself. The skate board keeping her on guard as it etched a few feet or so ahead of her, everytime it drifted too far apart she'd catch up and stop it with her converse. They were low top ones, and obviously old (any idiot could see that by the wear and tear on them). They were khaki green with pink outlines and had black and red marker pen all over them. Numerous smiley faces had been tattooed everywhere and the material stained by god only knows what. Her extra-fitting drainpipe jeans hugged every inch of her legs. They were ripped at the bottom where they'd been under her converses and as she'd skidded across the Park, she'd ripped the knees and upper thigh. What a waste of good jeans she'd told herself, but she had various other pairs back at the flat.

Tugging her Mosh && Roll black tee-shirt down she let a sigh escape from her mouth. She was slowly approacing Oceanside Apartments and she just hoped that her boyfriend would be home so he could give her some well thought after Tender Loving Care. Picking up the skate board as she made her way up the stairs to the flat, she pushed the key into the slot, turned it, pulled it out and stepped into the flat. Shutting the door behind her, she dropped her key into the key bowl. Hearing Skully come pounding towards her over the polish floor, she pulled a face as she felt the giangatic Boxer Dog jump on her. Stroaking her "baby," she whistled and he made his way back over to his Dog Bed. Unbuttoning her drainpipes, she walked into the flat more. "Honeeeey." she called. And just like the movies she added on, "I'm hommmeeee." with a considerate smile on her face.

Pulling down her drainpipes, she wiped her knees. They were grazed and the skin had been ripped off. Blood trickled slowly down her knee every now and then, so as she flung the drainpipes into the washing basket, she made her way into the kitchen. Getting out two plasters, she stuck them on over her knees and walked back out of the kitchen. Biting her lip, she wondered where Louis was and pondered whether or not he'd randomly jump out and grab her. "Babydolllll" she called, "Where are youuuu?"

Louis was currently sitting in his bedroom toying around with the dresser that was uneven. "Damn thing" he muttered watching Skully chase his tail around the bedroom. "Silly doggie, come heaaa" he said watching as the boxer dived ontop of it's owner with love and compassion. "What would I do without you and Cassidy eh?" he asked giving the dog a peck on top of his head. Leaning back, Louis was fiddling once more with the dresser and finally it layed straight. "Thank god, eh buddy?" Louis asked rubbing Skully's head. The boy got off his lazy bottom and manoverd himself twords the bed.

Pulling his vintage eagle tee down that he got at the thrift store the night before. Louis wanted to talk to Cassidy, he missed her already. They havn't even been gone for a long time. Yet, that is love for you! Louis loved Cassidy she always made him smile and get butterflies creaping into his stomach every time he held her hand. Louis bent down and reached for a yellow tennis ball that was all chewed up, slobbery and rolling around on the floor. "Skully Bear, Catch" Louis said throwing the ball not that far but out the door and into another room of the flat.

Louis smiled and then stood up walking over to the bathroom mirror. Fixing his black hair so it fell into his eyes. Cassidy always thought that when his hair was like that he was so cute. He loved pleasing her. His green eyes stared at his reflection and then down at his pants. They were vintage and ripped all over the place, showing a bit of his tattoed leg. His shirt showed his well rippled arm's and tattoos as well. Soon Louis heard a lock and became quite.

Louis heard the familar voice that he loved and cherished so much. Skully ran from chewing on a tennis ball twords running to Cassidy. Louis was quite walking around so he could sneak up on her. Coming up behind his girlfriend he slipped his hand into her back pocket and pressed up against her. "Hiya sweetheart" he whisperd into her ear.

And just like she'd expected, she felt somebody push up behind her. Taking a step forward slightly, just to tease him she smiled as she felt his hand slid into the back pocket of her boxer shorts. In fact they weren't even hers, they were his but she'd stolen them and he'd never really noticed. At least he'd never come up to her and told her to take them off. Not that she would have a problem with doing that of course. A smile came to her face as he whispered sweetheart in her ear. It was true, that was what they were and she was planning to have them be sweethearts for ever and a day. Because she loved him that much.

She turned around slowly to face him, smiling she noticed he'd fixed his hair just like she liked it to be. He was so sweet when he did little things like that. One hand placed underneath his tee-shirt she leaned up and gave him a soft kiss on his nose. "Hello baby." she whispered with a smile. They'd be going out for about seven years but still she felt the same old rush whenever she was near him. Nerves would still creep up her stomach and make her feel dizzy whenever he was around. Yet, when she was talking to him she always remained calm and collected. It was odd.

Her body pressed firmly against his like it had been before she turned around, her other hand fiddled with the top of his pants, once again teasing him like she did. "So. What have you been up to whilst I was away, eh?" she asked him with yet another smile. She knew he would have done something. Louis wasn't just the type of person that would stay home and do nothing. That was why she liked living with him so much because they shared the housework as well as the DIY.

Why he let her help him with the DIY she didn't know. Maybe it was so that they could mess around and get 'dirty' together. Whatever the reason, she didn't know. Nor did she need to know. Looking down as Skully nudged her leg, she smiled. Bending down, she scratched him behind the ear as he let out a bark. "Has he been looking after you?" she asked her dog, even though she knew he would never be able to answer her back.

Louis smiled at her teasing ways. "Babehh don't tease meh like that" he said. The butterflies creaping up in his stomach once again. He looked her over, notcing his boxer shorts. He smiled, he always thought she looked cute in his clothes. "I like yer shorts boo" he said giving her a light peck on the lips. "Why, what I was up to?" he asked taking her hand and leading her into the bedroom. "I've been working on the dresser. Cause it was sideways." he told her smiling as he pulled her closer to his body.

Louis has always been a DIY kind of guy. Since he grew up as an oldest child he was treated as a girl, and a boy. His fathers manly man, and his mothers little boy. Which is why, Louis has such great hair. Yet, his father was never really good at the whole DIY kind of thing. Louis just seemed to have the natural talent for it. Which was good since then there is no need for a mechanic or any of that sort.

"Mhm, yer all dirty." he said getting turned on by her dirty, bleeding self. "That's is kinky dearie" he said giving her a kiss on the mouth. "Your amazing you know that?" he said giving her another kiss. Louis pulled away from her and leaned on the bed. Propping his elbows up so he could still see his babycakes. "Rember, when we were younger. Sitting in my backyard. And I gave you those daisy's. And I said I didn't have a ring, but lets get married. So we set up a cermoney and our parent's watched. And they took pictures. And then I slept over in your little play house for the night as our honeymoon?" he asked smiling. He missed those days.

ohohsee: eek icky and short. forgive me hanner.

She shrugged as he spoke. Smiling up at him like she used to do when they were kids, she bit her lip. "Are you going to make me?" she asked him, tilting her head to the side ever so slightly. She noticed him smile, and tugged at the side of the boxer shorts. They were just a tiny bit baggy but whatever. She'd always thought that boxer shorts were comfier then girl underwear. "Why thankyou." she said as she gave him a warm hug. She walked with him into the bedroom and noticed that the dresser was now straight instead of being all wonky-donkey. She grinned up at him. "I loves you and your DIY skills babydoll." she told him, and it was true. Without him, a lot of the things in the flat would be totally up-and-down.

A giggle escaped her lips as he said she was all dirty. He was right, and she had truthfully wanted to go for a shower when she'd gotten in but Louis was more exicting then a shower anyday. "I knows. I feel over at the skatepark and got cutted." she said giving him a powt. She grinned as he said it was kinky. "I was going to go for a shower but on second thoughts.." she told him, being cut off as he kissed her. She kissed him back, her hand moving into the inside of his pants. "Yes I do know that but your even amazinger, if thats a word." she told him with a cute smile as he gave her another kiss. She nodded as he metioned when they were younger. No way would she -ever- be able to forget their little kiddy memories. They had been by far the cutest couple when they were kids, still were if she was being vain. "I dooooo," she said happily, sitting on him and then rolling off onto the bed. "That was the best day of my life." she told him, the smile still plastered across her face. She turned to face him. "Baby I love you." she told him, leaning forward and kissing him softly.

ooc; noooo mines worse =[

"I love you too Cass bear" he said wrapping her up in his arms. Louis rested his head on her shoulder and fiddled with the bottom of her shit. "Your so pretty" he said locking lips with her. "And your freaking amazing" he whisperd into her ear kissing her again hard on the lips. "Babeh, lets lay on the bed cause I am tierd of falling over" he told her picking her up bridal style and laying her on the bed as if it was their honeymoon. Which he visualized over and over again in his head.

Louis felt as it was the right time. The two never had sex wth anyone before. And they both wanted to wait till they got married. Louis didn't want to rush anything with Cassidy but he wanted to get some now. "Uh Cass.." he started to say but stopped, he wanted to ask her if they should. But he didn't want to sound geeky by asking. It was going to be there first time, and Louis was quite afraid. "Cass, your gonna think I am stupid for asking this but" he said laying ontop of her on the bed. "But do you wanna, ya know" he said avoding the word sex.

"Cause, I think it's the right time. But, I don't want to if you don't want to ya know. Since this is gonna be our first time and all. " he said flipping around so he was on his back and she was leaning ontop of him. "Cause I want it to be special ya know" he said kissing her hard on the mouth, then pulling away after a bit.

She felt shivers go up and down her back when he wrapped his arms around her. It was the feeling she always got when she was around him. She just felt so guarded and protected by him, that it was shocking and hard to believe. They'd proved everybody wrong. Everybody said they wouldn't last, but look at them now. Seven years on and still going strong. She was proud of that and although they were still young and hopeless, she really felt ready to give her life to him and trust him.

"Not as much as I love you baby." she told him, giving him a nosey before he kissed her lips. She loved it when he kissed her. His lips were so soft and gentle, but at the same time they were full of passion and she felt, right now, like she wanted to explore more into him. But she didn't want to say. Why? Because it was their first time and she wasn't sure whether he had his heart dead set on losing their virginity on their wedding night. But maybe he'd be brave and say it before she had to. "Yes bubba." she replied to him as she ran a finger slowly over all his tattoos. Words could not describe how much she loved his body. It was beautiful, like a work of art. "No I'm not babes. I'm going to think your stupid if you don't ask," she corrected him, looking up at his green eyes. She smiled as he finished. He must be shy because he had completly avoided using the word for it.

Waiting for him to finish, she listened polietly, smiling the whole time as he tried to explain it. Letting out a laugh as he rolled over, she played with the top of his shirt. Of course she did, he really shouldn't have bothered to ask, but it still made her feel tingly he hadn't just pushed ahead and let himself ruin any special moment it would be. "I would love to make love with you." she told him with a grin before leaning down and kissing him softly, one of her hands sliding down his thigh. As she continued to kiss him, her hand moved to his inner thigh before making its way to his pants zip. And then she started to slowly pull it down.

Louis didn't know what to say. He was avoding using the word mostly because he didn't want to offenend her if she didn't want to. So incase she said something else he'd just nod his head and go along with it. A smile escaped his lips when she said yes. He never had sex before, he didn't know what to do. But, he'd try. Louis wasn't like other boy's he has never actually seen pornography films or other things like that. Louis grew up clean of anything nasty like that.

Louis smiled as he was being kissed he pulled her closer to his body wanting her. Fiddling with the bottom of her shirt he moved his hands down to her pant's letting his hand's rest on her behind, letting his hands travel into her pant's and resting now on her skin. He kissed her with such a passion that he couldn't control. He stopped kissing Cassidy for a second and pulled off her top. Only to be kissing her once again, he also unsnapped her bra and pulled it off, without trying to scratch her with all the sharp objects that are on it. When he pulled her close he felt her breasts on his chest loving the sensation that it filled him with.

For once in her life, she felt comfortable with the silence that was spreading the room like you'd spread butter over warm toast. Her body was tingling just thinking about it and although they'd probably seen each other naked, they'd never really explored each others bodies to their full potential, they'd both agreed that they'd only have sex when the other was ready and well now that that time had come she was scared. Why? Because she didn't have a clue what to do.

She could feel his lips smiling against hers and she couldn't help but make the kiss a bit deeper by getting her tongue involved. Her spare hand moved up his shirt and slowly massaged his chest as her other hand struggled to tug at his pants. Although she was nervous and scared it was now becoming almost unbearable to not have sex with him. She'd gone from being in a normal mood to be insanely turned on by him and she couldn't wait anymore. Nor did she want. In fact, she couldn't believe they'd waited this long. She tried to focus on pulling down his pants when they broke from the kiss but she was getting so hot she couldn't focus and then she'd felt his lips touch hers again and she'd just gone back to kissing him. It all seemed to be in a mad rush. "Louis.." she moaned between kissing him. "Your..pants.." she whispered, urging him to help her. Because even if she didn't know how on god's earth they was going to have sex, she did know he needed his pants off to do so.

Louis couldn't stand silence, there either had to be something real interesting on, or that he was so close to someone when they didn't talk it felt like they said so much words to eachother. Yet, he was getting that feeling that he should break that silence, but he couldn't. He shouldn't, it would ruin the moment he couldn't do that. Louis noticed that Cassidy was trying to get his pant's down. After she said pant's. "Mhm dearie" he whisperd breaking this kiss to pull down his pant's, leaving his green boxers quite low. He didn't want to take them off just yet.

Louis kissed her hard on the mouth. Trying to take off her pant's now, so he rolled ontop of her. Struggling to get the button open while they kissed, he finally did. Yet, he was struggling to get her pant's off this time. "Babehh."he said inbetween kisses. "Your pants" he said kissing her collerbone now. He manoverd his way down to kiss her breast with light kisses that tickled and then back up to her collerbone.

Cassidy was always usually the one to break silence. Not because she generally disliked it, hey somebody silence just fitted the mood but because whenever people usually wanted or needed silence she was having an energy spurt and that generally meant her mouth grew in size. Letting go of his pants when he answered her, she let him slid them down without motioning to carry on the kiss. "Thank you," she whispered into his ear. It sounded a dumb thing to say but she had truly been struggling to get him down to this stage and the sensation was growing every second.

Her lips curved into a smile as he kissed her hard on the mouth. It looked like he wanted it just as much as he did and for that she was glad. Noticing him fumbling with her pants, she smiled as he rolled on top of her. She'd always sort of imagined them to lose it with him on top however lame it sounded. She liked it when he took control. "Ah huh" she mumbled as he said in return about her parents. She shivered as he made his way down her body then back up again. He knew the way his body work and it was almost frightening. Putting her fingers down the side of her pants, she yanked them down and kicked them off of the bed. "Baby, how could we have waited this long?" she asked him.

"I don't know baby, I really don't" he said kissing her back on her lips. He smiled as she took her pant's off and let his hand's explore her body. He let his hands travel from her breasts gliding over her hips and down twords her thighs. Letting his hands moved inside of her thighs. Right up to where her vagina would be but not touching it yet, he wanted to make her shiver with excitment. He kissed her letting his tounge massage her tounge letting his hand travel closer twords her vagina with each passing second.

He couldn't take it anymore. He wanted her, he pushed his boxers off to reveal his 10 inch willy wonka bar. He kissed her moving his way down to her underwear. He slowly slipped them off dropping them onto the floor. Now they were finally naked. He kissed her lowering himself twords her. "Are you ready? he asked?

She loved it when he called her baby. It made her feel safe in his arms, safe to be herself. She moaned as he kissed her again on the lips. He was irresitable and she couldn't believe she'd had him to herself for such a long time. She let out another trail of moans as his hands glided across her body, they were big and strong and her body was now getting desperate. As he slipped his tongue into her moan, her arms wrapped around his neck drawing him closer to her body without making their bodies press firmly. How much did she want him now?

Loads. She couldn't believe it had taken them this long to get to this stage. Of course they'd wanted to be different but she didn't know how she had been able to stop herself from going over making out stage when they were as open with each other as they was. She felt the cold air touch her wholesome body as he took off the final peice of clothing. Now their were nervous butterflies flittering in her stomach and she couldn't believe it was all happening as he lowered himself onto her. Leaning up, she kissed him, "Of course I am."

He nodded and that was all that was needed. He slowly positioned himself that he could slip into her. He was trying not to hurt her, he didn't want to hurt her. Slowly, sliding into her he kissed her. They passed the first stage, and the second. Now was positions. Louis wasn't so well on positions. Sexual positions hell, he didn't even know any. Right now, this was one big accomplishment for him. He tried to think about what his highschool friends did. He couldn't I mean what was there?

Louis just kissed her, sliding slowly in and out of her to provide some movment, insted of staying in the same positon while making out. He moved faster, and slower changing speeds. He moved away from her mouth and down to her breasts kissing her nipple softly for a few seconds before letting his mouth guide him back twords her lips kissing her letting his tounge massage her tounge.

She was nervous, and frightened. She couldn't help but be even though she loved Louis. Losing it would be a big thing for her; I mean, she was nineteen and even if she could give it the big one she was now stuck when it came to do actually doing anything. Her back arched as she felt him enter her. For the first few seconds it felt weird, uncomfortable even and then her body slowly began to ease. She knew he wouldn't purposely set out to hurt her, espacilly not whilst they were doing something she thought as a big step into womanly hood. However lame and cheesy it sounded.

Letting her body relax and come to terms with what was going on. Her arms moved from around his neck to his shoulders. Her hands firmly but in a way that wasn't hurting him, massaging into his shoulder blades as she kissed him. A moan escaped from her mouth as he moved from her mouth and back down her body. Cassidy didn't know how he knew all the right things to do, but she didn't care and as she kissed him she couldn't help but smile against his lips.

-FADEINTOBLACK-

Louis layed next to Cassidy on the bed thinking about what he had just done. In the past hour or so they gave eachother their virgingity. They got dressed and cleaned up the mess they made. And now, Louis was feeling proud yet weird of what they had just done. He didn't know if it was the right thing to give his virginity away like that all of a sudden. He new he loved Cassidy, yet now he was having second thoughts about if he was in love with her.

He looked at her turning twords her body. "Hiya baby" he said kissing her nose lightly and pulling away. He couldn't tell her, what would she say. He wanted to find out if he was in love with her. See if he could be with other women and feel the same thing. Mabey what they have going is just lust. Louis wanted to tell her to see if they really are in love by going to see other people. He wanted to see...

Cassidy was lying still next to Louis. She'd been asleep for a few minutes or so after they'd cleaned up their mess and got dressed, her body almost motionless except for when it moved up and down as she breathed silently. She'd been quite happy to give up her virginity and it seemed Louis had. But something had made her think about what they'd just done. Of course she'd enjoyed it. According to her, in her mind she was now a properly formed woman. But she just didn't know.

As he heard his soft voice, her eyes slowly open, a gentle and not too big smile coming to her face as she felt him kiss her nose. There he was again, saying the word that sent shivers up and down her spine and it still didn't fail. Shivers arised on her body, as she slowly turned to face him. Her arm lazily draped over his stomach, she let out a slightly cute-sounding yawn. "Hello muffin." she whispered, as she closed her eyes again. Give her break, I mean a girl can get tired right?

Louis was confused. He had to tell her, he didn't want to blurt it out and just say it. Yet, he had to. "Sweetie. Uh, your gonna be upset with this." he said starting to tell her. He didn't want to hurt her. He just wanted to see if he was actually in love with her. He knew that he loved her, and he was probably going to be in love with her. He just wanted to know if this was going to be lust or love.

"I know that I love you, but now im getting this feeling that I am not sure that this is lust, or love. I mean I don't know if I am in love with you. Which is pretty horrible to say since we just gave up our virginity together. But.. " he said his voice drifting off.

She looked up at him as he said she was going to be upset with what he was going to say. Time stopped and her heart began to thud, thud, thud away in her heart. Oh god, it couldn't be he was cheating on her could it? Or worse, maybe he didn't love her and he was leaving her to be with another woman. Oh god, she couldn't think properly. Thoughts were spinning in endless motions in her head and all of a sudden she felt dizzy. "Go on." she whispered.

What he had just said he properly woken her up. And she could already feel the tears coming to her eyes. Pricking painfully away at her as she lay next to him. She looked at him and blinked. He wasn't being serious was he? She felt used and she couldn't help but feel sick to be around him. Even if she did love him. "Are you being serious?" she said, rather coldly. She didn't want to cry in front of him, so that was why she'd tried to make it come out nastily. But really it'd come out as a high pitched squeek. And if he said he was serious, she'd just run off and cry in the guest room.

"Yes, I am. I don't want to hurt you but I am not sure." he whisperd to her. He didn't want to hurt her. He really didn't. He saw the tears starting. He didn't want to make her cry. He just wanted to see. Not make anyone sad. But that plan sure screwed itself over. "Please don't cry, or be mad at me. I don't want to hurt you. " he whisperd again. His voice was loosing control. He was going to start to cry soon.

"I want to see if I am in love with you. I don't want to hurt you. You know that right?" he said. He whished he got this feeling before the gave their virginity up to eachother. That way it wouldn't hurt as much.

Her jaw dropped as he said he was being serious. Her whole world had come crashing down on her and her head was spinning. Nausea(sp) flooded over her body and a blanket of fear covered her. She was nothing without Louis. But what could she do. She loved him, and if this was the way to make him happy then that had to be. "Okay." she mumbled. "I'm not, honestly." she lied. She was made at him, and she did want to cry like a baby. It was natural for somebody in her situation to be. But she didn't want to let him see her cry. She couldn't.

She needed to get away from him. She couldn't stand the site of him, she didn't want to be near him anymore. She'd just lost it to this guy and now he was breaking it off with her. Well he was definetly the boy she'd grown up with wasn't he? "Yeah. Of course I do." she said, her voice still shaky as she looked at the door. Now was time for her to make a quick escape. "I'll move into the guest room." she whispered to him, before getting out of the bed as fast as she could and exiting from the room. Almost sprinting into the guest room, she shut the door behind her and locked the door. She didn't want him to come after her, it'd just make her even more mad and upset then she already was. And as soon as she slid down the wall onto the floor, the tears rolled down her cheeks.

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